...aku dan duniaku...

:: extremely flat ::

mas13119 — Mon, 11 May 2009 03:54:29 +0000

it had been one month ++ i didn’t update my blog…. there is no entry for april… i always want to write something but i can’t did that… yeah… flat.. i am extremely flat for one month… Alhamdulillah… maha besar kuasa Allah SWT… now i feel better and i can stand, think and write… for past one month i just only laid down, i have no strength to do anything… it is too hard to explain…

i always thought that will be the end of mylife… masyaAllah… every minutes i felt like something tried to pulled my heart out… tried to separate my soul with my body… mengarutkan… that why i never want to tell anybody… peoples will never understand for my condition now… malah “someone” (u know who u are) had tried to manipulate my condition… pls don’t tried to be concern… beside ur concern you always have your own agenda… please leave us alone.. my beloved hubby and my family knows what they are doing… everything they did are for good… and it will no harm to myself…

i know… Allah SWT telah menentukan my journey atas muka bumi ni… i always think that Allah SWT want to test me… hanya certain people yg Allah will choose untuk diuji… Allah hanya akan menguji orang yang Dia tahu boleh melalui uijianNya… iaitu orang yang kuat dan tabah… am i strong enough??? yes i am strong and too strong untuk melaluinya… why i said that i am strong… eventhough banyak benda yang kena lalui.. sakitnya hanya Allah yg tahu…but until now aku masih bernafas… Allahamdulillah… syukur ke hadrat Allah SWT..

thank you so much to my beloved one… which is my hubby that always at my side… walau apa pun berlaku… terima kasih atas kasih sayang abang pada ayang yang tak ada batas dan sempadan… terima kasih sebab menjaga ayang dengan penuh kesabaran… terima kasih atas keikhlasan abang… ayang rasa kalau orang lain dah lama tinggalkan ayang… mesti tak sabar nak jaga ayang bila ayang sakitkan…

terima kasih juga buat anak mama… myra karmila… for being such a good girl… you only 2 years ++ but for mama you like 12 years old…. sepatutnya mama yang jaga myra… tapi now myra yang selalu jaga mama…. selalu prihatin dengan keadaan mama… myra akan cepat2 panggil papa bila nampak mama lain macam… myra akan cepat2 berlari pergi ambik bekas kalau nampak mama mcm nak muntah… dan paling mama sayu bila myra urut belakang mama bila mama muntah… myra selalu tanya mama… mama kenapa.. mama nak muntah yer… myra mmg anak yang bijakkan….

terima kasih juga untuk my family.. mak.. ayah dan adik beradik aku… tolong jaga aku masa my hubby pergi kerja.. tolong jaga myra masa aku tak sihat… dan yang penting terima kitorg untuk duduk kat sini walaupun byk menyusahkan…

tak lupa juga for my friend… umi yg ingat kat aku dan bagi semangat kat aku… kawan2 lain yg mungkin kalian berdoa dari jauh… thank you so much… aku terlalu rindu dengan kehidupan aku yang dulu…. office… kerja… kawan2… tapi… ermm….

aku tak pernah minta jadi begini…. semoga aku bertambah kuat dan tabah untuk mengharungi semua ini…. amin…

:: she is so adorable… as always ::

mas13119 — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 05:47:55 +0000

it is true… she is so adorable today… who else… MYRA KARMILA ler.. our sweet litle angle… dari semalam she wanted to wore her baju kurung… sampai nak masuk tido pun still ambil baju kurung… nak tido pakai baju kurung… huhuhu…

today… hajat si kecik aku tercapai gak… pas mandi… ambik baju kurung yg dia nak pakai dari smalam… ni ade sket photos of myra… posing dgn baju kurung dia.. ayu dan chantek sesangat anak aku hari ni….

myra.. over pose… in her baju kurung…

peace… myra with her pose wajib…

“If I ever saw an angel, it was in your eyes.”

“Every minute I spend with you is like being in heaven and looking in an angel’s eyes.”

:: faces of my precious ::

mas13119 — Fri, 20 Mar 2009 05:38:32 +0000

So…. in an attempt to make up some of my blogging, I’m posting some of my favorite photos of

MYRA KARMILA… my precious…

i always love to shot her actions and reaction… she is so adorable… myra has become our litle entertainer… she is really active.. even she is having fever she still run all over the house.. jumping.. disturbing me of coz… plays with talcum… huhuhu… this is the most favorite activity in her daily routine…

so enjoice some photos of myra’s….

dear sayang mama… mama always love you so very much…

:: sneak preview- murni&zairi ::

mas13119 — Wed, 18 Mar 2009 06:34:03 +0000

:: bts: abang in action ::

mas13119 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:24:15 +0000

masa shot murni hari tu aku layan shot behind the scene… specially dedicated to abang…. ayang harap abang suker shot2 ayang ni yer…

abang tgh bg instruction kat murni& zairi… aper la yg dibisik tu..

enjoices 3 more photos of abang doing his shot…

for me abang seorang yang tersgtlah passionate bila buat sesuatu yg di suka… dia tak kira demam ker… hujan ker… dia kan buat bersungguh2… nanti aku akan upload gbr2 murni yg aku shot… tunggu big boss posting hasil kerja dia dulu… huhuhu….

:: 1st ever shot at abang’s hometown… ::

mas13119 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 14:04:30 +0000

last weekend we went back to abang’s hometown… maner lagi kalau bukan kuantan…. kali ni bukan balik sesaje jer.. but we have to shot murni’s wedding… murni and family dah kira mcm sedara ngan abang… boleh dikatakan family angkat abang… masa bujang dulu abang stay family murni ni… mak murni makcik ani dah macam mak angkat kat abang….

aku kenal murni lebih kurang 10 thn lepas… masa tu dia baru darjah 5-6.. cam tu lah… dulu murni ni cam tomboy sket… kasar… aku ingat dia akan maintain tomboy… la ni dah jadi gadis ayu… dah jadi wife org pon… cantik… dah mcm dynaz plak aku tgk dier.. nak2 masa dah di make-up… cuma dier lagi kurus dr dynaz…

murni yg tgh control cun…. huhuhu… cantek sgt dier…

Masa hari kenduri hujan lebat dari subuh lagi… majlis nampak cam hambar sket but alhamdulillah semua berjalan lancar… tapi… kesian kat mak cik ani… risau dia… org yg dtg basah dan x selesa… risau ramai yg x dapat dtg sebab hujan… x pelah.. hujan kan satu rahmat… aku x shot sgt… abg x bg aku keluar sebab hujan… so aku dok dlm rumah jer… aku shot masa dlm umah.. yg lain semua abg buat…

makcik ani yg kerisauan.. sian kat dier…

tak pelah makcik… yg penting majlis berjalan lancar dan murni dah sah menjadi isteri zairi…. to murni.. kak ayang, abg amer & myra doakan semoga murni bahagia di samping zairi sehingga akhir hayat kalian…. amin….

:: am i? ::

mas13119 — Tue, 17 Mar 2009 13:40:09 +0000

today when i was checking my fb i’ve did two quizes which are;

1) “What does your birthday says about you“

and the result as follows….

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

2) “Which type of women are you?”

and the result as follows…. i am a Lovely Lady….

You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don’t loose yourself in work or curing other people’s souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don’t say your opinion when it’s right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way… You are uniqe and rare!

My comment:- both results are 70% correct… ermm.. may be 80%… abg… any comment???

:: Runaway pre-wedding: Pablo&Fifi ::

mas13119 — Sat, 07 Mar 2009 10:44:58 +0000

enjoice some photos…

p/s: akunyer editing version malas tahap gaban….

:: bts: Runaway pre-wedding at KL Town ::

mas13119 — Fri, 06 Mar 2009 04:59:18 +0000

d’gengster paradise…. huhuhu… semua nampak gagah perkasa… padahal semua

dah lembik… nak jalan pon dah x larat….

*credit to sirreh for this photo.. very nice photo…

http://www.flickr.com/photos/sirreh

last 2 weeks.. aku ngan abg has joined AF from Myphotographer

in his Run Away Pre-Wedding at KL Town (Pablo&Fifi)…

aku mmg suka activity mcm nie…

then aku paling suke shot behind the scene (bts)

dan yg paling aku suka membontot abg ke mana saje dia pergi…

tp x pe abg rela nak bawak aku ke mana aje…

ktrg start dr KL Sentral > CM > Masjid Jamek > Jalan TAR >

Maju Junction > BB > KLCC … ktrg jalan kaki lebeh kurang 20 km…

huhuhu… nak kira letih… mmg tak terkira keletihan nyer..

tapi aku enjoy sesangat… dan aku suka sgt amek gambo bts ni..

so enjoice some photos from me…

incik AF tgh ajor Pablo&Fifi cara2 nak pose… mood kena lebey taw…

abg tgh usya port for the best angle…

kusyuk nyer….

amm_wattan in action…

aksi selepas kekenyangan mkn KCF… huhuhu.. alasan nak baring je ni…

dua aksi berani mati… menyarap tgh jln TAR to get marbeles shot… dorg cuma ada

bbp second je nak shot masa lampu merah… huhuhu… mmg berani mati nih..

masing2 dah termenung kepenatan… jln sekejap… renti sekejap…

letih2 pon sempat lagik pose.. masa ni kat bb.. tgh tunngu train lalu…

siannyer… pablo&fifi pon dah keletihan…

balik time… kat putra klcc… masing2 maintain macho lagi tu…

:: me&him ::

mas13119 — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 06:38:29 +0000

hari ni masa aku tgh godek2 pc.. aku terjumpa ni..

huhuhu… this is the 1st ever schema potraiture for us…

guess what… this photo has been shot not inside

d studio.. but kat ruang legar eqoutorial hotel, bangi..

masa ni abg follow agen shoot dinner for 1 company..

early this year…can’t remember the company name..

so ktrg tumpang 4 kaki la..

(aku ngan muka sememeh.. not in good health…)

masa ni agen tengah set up and test ligthing ok ke x…

aku ingat nak soh abg print this photo in biggest size

and frame it… gbr skema for us… not that bad kan..

and i think… boleh letak kat our website… for about us

column… ok x sayang? sure abg jawab…

“tengoklah dulu sayang…” huhuhu… tau sgt…

… but knowing him… abg takkan naknyer letak gbr ktrg

kat website.. abg kan pemalu… low profile.. huhuhu..

yer ke sayang???

smalam masa abg balik keje.. he was so excited…

terus ngadap pc and internet… ooo… rupa2 nye

dia nak tunjuk kat aku something… biasalah abg…

apa2 yg dia buat sure dia x sabar nak aku tengok and comment…

guess what…he has created blog for our photography business…

which is..

http://myramir.com/blog

i am so touch.. i’ve read apa yg abg tulis…

and it is true.. to be what we are now… ktrg dah

lalui byk benda..and there are

so many things that we need to improve…

hope one day we could achieve our target…Insya Allah…

and not to forgot… our old photo… kawen time…

see… betapa berbeza nyer aku ngan abg… huhuhu..

p/s: dulu photographer aku gune filem jer…